This is a writing journal. The following are a few simple guidlines I'd like to be obeyed:

01) Criticism is welcomed and appreciated, so long as it's constructive.

02) Warnings are there for a reason -- if there's something you don't like, don't read. And if you're not old enough to read it then don't. I'm not a babysitter and I don't want parents yelling at me.

03) Don't take my stuff and claim it as your own. Archiving is okay so long as you ask first and then give me the appropriate credit.

04) If you take my plot-line/idea to expand upon or rewrite, credit me with the original idea.

Title: Hallelujah
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG, I guess
Chapter: Oneshot
Pairing: J/Kiyoharu

Warnings: Character death.

Summary: None.

Disclaimer: I do not own J, Kiyoharu, or Hakuei and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with any affiliated bands, the members thereof, labels thereof, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: This is written for (or, maybe because) of hyouryuu_wa. Who was supposed to write something depressing and then didn't. This is kind of payback. It was fun to write, and it has allusions to Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah.



( i saw your flag on the marble arch, and love is not a victory march. )

Title: Love Like A Fire
Genre: AU - Drama
Rating: G
Chapter: Prologue
Pairing: J/Kiyoharu

Warnings: Language?

Summary: None.

Disclaimer: I do not own J, Kiyoharu, Tal, or Hakuei and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with any affiliated bands, the members thereof, labels thereof, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: This is for the amazing hyouryuu_wa, whom I love dearly. This chapter is kind of short, and really just serves as an introduction to the characters and what little of the plot I am willing to give away at present. If this is your first time with us, or if you need a refresher, I don't have a beta, so if you see a typo just let me know and I'll fix it right on up. As always, comments are appreciated.



( have another cigarette and just keep smiling )

Title: ich verspreche
Rating: PG
Chapter: Oneshot (possibly)
Pairing: Kyo/Toshiya (general)

Warnings: Nothing too big. A bit of angst. And prolly OOC.

Summary: The only reaction that mattered to him had been non-existant at best, and that was just the way that he liked it, because after all these years he found that the only way to gauge the way the blonde felt about something was by how many words that he used.


Disclaimer: I do not own Kyo, Toshiya, Dir en grey, any related symbols, persons, or parties. I am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with any of the aforementioned or any affiliates thereof. This is a work of fiction, done for fun and it's not making any money.


Author's Notes: It's shit like this that keeps distracting me from that damned Kaoru/Shinya I keep trying to work on. It was supposed to be finished a week ago, but first came J/Kiyoharu and now this shit. I need to stop talking to people and generally being on the internet until that fic gets done. And it prolly doesn't help that I'm beta-ing hyouryuu_was new fic, either. Which everyone should go read, it's filled with Yakuza goodness. And. ich verspreche is, in theory, German for "I promise."



( wasn't just pretend )

Title: Those Who Wait
Genre: Romance, I guess.
Rating: NC-17
Chapter: Oneshot
Pairing: Juichi Morishige/Sakura

Warnings: Just the sex

Summary: Morishige loves to watch the way that Sakura's fingers slide over the keys of his piano. It's the first time that the drummer has played in months, and the vocalist simply can't help himself.


Disclaimer: I do not own Juichi Morishige or Sakura and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with either band, their members, either band's label, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: This is done as a sort of challenge, to myself. I decided against jfetish_15 in favor of handpicking fifteen of my own fetishes. This is the first that I did, with a fairly mild fetish by the name of partialism.



( he hadn't said it in three monhts. . . )

Title: Rette Mich
Genre: Angst
Rating: NC-17
Chapter: Oneshot
Pairing: Atsushi Sakurai/Hakuei & Slight Hisashi Imai/Hakuei

Warnings: Drug Use, Abuse, Adultery, Sex, Sadomasochism, Language

Summary: Hakuei has always been passed from abusive lover to abusive lover. It's part of the norm. But when Hisashi Imai pushes the envelope too far at practice in the eyes of Atsushi Sakurai, Satan comes to the rescue, but Hakuei's flirtatious ways are enough to promote the defenestration of ideals.


Disclaimer: I do not own Atsushi Sakura, Hisashi Imai, or Hakuei and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with either band, their members, either band's label, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: This is for screaming_003. It took me over a month to write this, but I'm proud of the way that it turned out. I hope that you enjoy it too. Rette Mich is German for Save Me, for those of you who don't know. I was inspired by the Tokio Hotel song of the same name. ALSO! This might have been better served as a two chapter fic, but I'd rather lump it all together, so deal.



( ten years out of eden now -- life is bitter, life is cheap )

Title: Let's be Brilliant Together
Genre: Uncategorized, yet again. Why do I even keep this?
Rating: R/NC-17? Sometimes it's hard for me to tell.
Chapter: One Shot
Pairing: Kyo & Hakuei (hakyo)

Warnings: sex, slight mention of minor sadomasochistic tendencies, fluff (lol, i know right?)

Summary: I suck at these unless I had an intention to begin with. Just read it, dammit.


Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en Grey, PENICILLIN, PENICILLIN nano, or Machine. I do not own Hakuei or Kyo and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with either band, their members, either band's label, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious and the product of my strange brain. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: I wrote this today while sitting through an 8 hour driving improvement course. It was seriously the most boring thing ever. I would have rather been at an Oshare concert trying to enjoy myself. Also, this was a long-running dare from erzuliesdream and myself: Whether I could make Kyo topping Hakuei work. But, then again, she's only experienced my seme!Hakuei (as seen in pretty when you cry), and has never met my uke!Hakuei.



( the nicotine is almost refreshing as he comes down from his high with half-lidded eyes... )

Title: Waver
Genre: Deathfic.
Rating: R
Chapter: One Shot
Pairing: Hakuei & Kyo (hakyo)

Warnings: rape, violence, death, (implied/mentioned) drug use

Summary: An argument turns in to nasty assumptions, and things can only go downhill from there.


Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en Grey, PENICILLIN, PENICILLIN nano, or Machine. I do not own Hakuei or Kyo and am in no way, shape, or form affiliated with either band, their members, either band's label, or any affiliates thereof. All events are fictitious and the product of my strange brain. As the reader it is your responsibility to take all of this in to account while reading.


Author's Notes: This was written because of my recent aggitation with ignorance and arrogance. No, they are not themes presented in this fic, but when an Andi gets angry she tends to go around and mess things up. This is just another example of how that is done. Also! My beta wasn't around, so this is unbetaed.




( cross my heart and hope to die... )